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A Man’s Innner Peace

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A man’s inner peace. KENNETH WARNER BELLECA

I, myself is a stranger. I know myself better than anyone in this world. But who knows? When a person behind you can see through the mask you are wearing. Its true, that our eyes are the gates to our souls, but we only open our eyes to real persons, that’s why I opened mine. I let Kenneth enter my soul and meet him. Because I know him. He is truly an imperative person deep within.

3rd year highschool is the most dignifying year of my high school life. This year became the starting line on meeting the persons that surely will be with me along the way. One of these persons is Kenneth Warner Ronquillo Belleca. A tall, thin guy that has the looks for attracting chics, but has the neck of a giraffe. A semi-Chinese characteristics has covered his face, You can see it in his eyes and nose, some features of a Chinese blood. Well defined in his physical aspects. For the “Values Education” part. He is simply annoying in terms of boastfulness. “Super maduros” as we call it. Over self-confidence? Checked, Super aspiring? Checked, Prank? Checked… Anyway, he is “that kind” of person. We are all used it it. But who cares with his negative traits? He’s simply one of the best person that I met that time. What I liked about his personality? He is true with his deeds. He’s a reasonable person that will let you understand him in every way he could. A type of man that will reason out his personality to you… And you are lucky if he let you see the true Kent, his true PERSPECTIVE of his whole identity.

His identity is much of a mysterious type. Yes, he’s a “people’s person” …but you really don’t know him in actual. Maybe, all of a sudden I met this person for some reason. To make me believe that despite every smile that he gave, there’s an equivalent story behind it, not as narrow as you think but as deeper as I thought.

I let him entered my life. And kaboom, we became friends. All of a sudden. I don’t know, we just crossed each others path. He became my everyday companion since the Clafoutis day. But before that, who would tell? We really don’t care with each other, we are nothing to each other. We are once an enemy that day. Well some sort of backstabbing when we were not yet close. But opposing to that, we became so close after that event. I can conclude that I had an instant best friend within those times. As I already said, he is a good companion. Recess, lunch, seatmates, dismissals, after class events, we are with each other. I had an everyday companion that will seek and look for me just to do our every day habits. For years, he’s been one of my closest friend in the circle… One of the best. :)

A cool friend. That’s how I describe it. His coolness is as high as ever… But I need to say this, his coolness is sometimes in drained condition. You can see it when he’s not in the mood. Lot of people know him of being cool. But I know his rudeness. I know what his inner feelings are, and he told me the story behind it. It was devastating to the both of us that we shared the same feelings with our past. We have the same disappointments in life, rejections, the sacrifices… But after all, well, put that all in the past. Im just happy that he shared his life to me even though its really hard to talk about it… Its hard to deal with the fact that yeah, we have almost the same past… What we do now is think about it as a lesson. A lesson of the past that Kenneth and I needs to accept… A bitter reality that maybe needs to be understood. That God made it for us, and with that. I know God has the best plans.

Here’s something that you must hear. Prepare for some tissues. Haha 

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Shoti! Hey dude… Gusto ta kang apudon Kuya Warner…. HAHAHA

You still remember? After classes kung nag sain sain kita nag duduman? Haha… Haralatan sa Kanto, sabay sa pag uwi, laskwatsa kung saan saan. Haha. Miss ko na ang mga panahon na to Kenneth. Haha. Itong hinahalat mo akong matapos sa mga school works ko dawa halos 7pm na kadto, hinahahalat mo man girararay ako matapos tas sinasabayan mo pa ako pag uli. Daeng-dae ko to malilingawan. Halos ara-aldaw kita kadtong sabay nag uuli haha. Haha, nag iiristoryahan pa kita kato sa mga buhay-buhay ta, tungkol kay Coeli, HAHAHA… Grabe kadto ang mga topics ta specially tungkol kay Regina HAHAHAHA… Haha. Tas itong nag iirisaw kita kadto sa may Westpark haha Kitang tulo kadto ni Ram hihi…  The walking from SM to Concepcion with Lito… hahahaha GRABE TO. One of the memorable experience after dismissals. \m/

I thank God. I thank Him because, I still have a friend like you Kenneth. Aram ko masakit akong pakisamahan na tao pero yaon ka na dyan, kada taka. Maski grabe ang issue ta kadto mau, naging close man giraray kita, beside sa pagiging Kada, bako ka lang Kada, Tunay ka na Kada. Dae ka nakakalingaw…Ika man giraray ang Kenneth na nakaibanan ko kang Third year. Salamat sa pagiging tunay na kada. Kang mga times na may mga problema ako, yaon ka para magdangog sako, dae mo ako tig iisnob, garo kita mag tugang. Kang kaipuhan ko ning masasandalan na tao, yaon ka. Salamat na maray Kenneth. Kang mga times na halos ako nalang ang tao sa campus dahil sa school works, yaon ka man giraray, dae mo ako tig babayaan. Dae mo ako pinapasolong uli, sinasabayan mo man giraray ako dawa matanga na tas delikado na… Tanda ko pa kadto, pirmi tang tig lalakaw from school to Rotonda or Panganiban dawa 9pm na ning banggi kadto. Haha. Adventure time tlga to, pirmi ko tong narurumduman pag nag lalakaw ako solo sa panganiban, ika ang narurumduman ko pirming kaibanan kadto kang third year, HAHA. You’re the best Kenneth! Maalaga ka tas maboot kang Kada. Dae ka pabaya na kada. Yan ang gustong gusto ko saimo. Salamat sa tinao mong tiwala sako sa pag share kang mga bagay-bagay sa buhay mo. You entrusted your stories to me. Thanks to that. Salamat ta nashasharan ta ka man ning mga problema ko…Salamat sa jamming tas laskwatsa, salamat sa gabos na pakikisama Haha. Salamat sa gabos-gabos kent.

Sorry kent kung minsan may nagigibo ako saimong Kasalanan, sorry kung dae ko naibabalik ang mga maray na nagibo mo sako kadto… sorry kung minsan napipikon ako saimo… Haha. Sorry kung minsan bad ako saimo. Sorry sa lahat ng kasalanan ko saimo. I apologize  for everything.

Sana Kenneth, dawa harayo ka na samong Kadas, dae mo pag isipon na baka mag barago kami… syempre kami man giraray ang Kadas mo… Sana ika man dae ka man mag bagooo hahaha… Yaon lang kami dgd para saimo tandaan mo yan. Sana may mabisto ka man na new kadas sa NYK… Haha. Ingat pirmi eu po? Kung namimiss mo na ako or kami, PM ka lang… call or whatever… We will listen to you. Anytime. Alagaan mo ang sadiri mo… Eat healthy foods, para dae ka pag para hilangon… dae magpakastress eu? Haha. Lalo ka kayan mapayat lol. Always do the right thing. I wish you all the best Kenneth. Aram ko magiging successful ka sa field na pinili mo, tiwala ako dyan ;) GOD BLESS! Ingat ka palagi and Take care! Mamimiss mi ikang mmaraaaaay… mamimiss taka Kent! Taga bareta man samo kang nangyayari saimo eu? Padangaton mi ika Kenneth! Labyu dude! Haha gaysht XD

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Some of the best people really need to leave as soon as it wanted. Because being the best is a tough job to maintain, we leave to realize all the things that we need to be the “Better-Best.” That’s what Kenneth tends to do. We all hope that you Kent will bring all the greatest memories that we had shared to you. In that way, even when you’re leaving and will stay in a far away place from us, you will stay with us. Just remember that we Kadas will always be around to support you… We will be here… I will wait for your comeback. As you get back, we will relive all the bountiful memories that we had, like we used to do when our way home from school, we will reminisce the best memories ever. :) Come home soon Shoti! ‘Cause we miss you already. This is hard but… Goodbye. :’)

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SO WHAT PART 3

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Having incompleteness in life doesn’t make me a person that’s full of regrets, maybe I just demand for more, wanting everything to be in accordance to my plans. I’m already grown up, I already know how to decide on my own, I manage my decisions. I’m all alone, so I know what I’m doing. I grew up from my root as an independent individual. I treat myself as a different person, it’s like putting me on a situation that I need to learn on my own, know my mistakes, practicing what’s already perfect. Yeah, I am the only child, I can’t deny that. There are many misconceptions about me, that they already predict or guess what is my attitude, my personality, my likes, my dislikes and many more, they decide to interpolate on what is real me. Yes, I heard them so negatively, they are saying that all kind of “only child” are all the same, they are the one who grew up treated as king or queen, that they are spoiled brat that gets whatever he or she wanted. I am not like that. Yes, I already admitted that I demand for more, and that’s all true, I demanded for more because those things that they are giving me are less from my needs, it doesn’t suite my need, scarcity on other point of view. Yes, not good enough to supply my need. But I think, its already a matter of time that I speak out that they were good enough on giving what I need, and I am thinking about what kind of “economic status” we have to sustain our needs. Now that I have already realized many things on my 16-years of existence, I already know my basic to complicated needs. What I’m just craving to have is a complete family. I need a family living on joy and peace. Is it really hard to find? Is this so hard to find that i should sacrifice every second of my life just to find a family that will give me enough reasons to stay on them. So what should I do to make a family living on joy and peace? Do I have to become an angel or devil or even a magician to just make this thing real? But it’s already the reality of life that told me that I failed to maintain the family that used to be my foundation of strength and eagerness to have my desired success on whatever field I am taking. I failed. Hatred has finally found me lying on a highway, a highway where my family has abandoned me. Its just like I am a child who is already lost on his way to her home, that he needs to cross every way just to look and find the way that will lead back to his home of joy and peace. So where am I now? I’m lost, lost in a world where hatred is the king and I am caught by his royal guards and they bringing me to a chapter of my life which only contains sadness, fear and hatred. The family that used to be my strength is now gone, broken. I’ve entered a cage of sorrow and only a little light of hope is shining upon my eyes.

I don’t think that Our God has bad plans for me, yes, sometimes I talk to him all alone in the church, asking him, why my life has reached this kind of obstacles? Why my life has to experience all of this things? Am I that bad to receive all of the unwanted things in life? Yes, many of my questions are still unanswered, but why do I have to have these 2nd thoughts? It’s our Lord who is planning my life. Like many organism in this petty world, I have strong beliefs on my faith, that Our Lord is my guide on my way to success and recovery. Like any religious person, I have a solid faith in God. That Almighty God has all the answers for my questions and doubts. 

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All of Me by John Legend

JOHN LEGEND LYRICS

"All Of Me"

[Verse 1:]

What would I do without your smart mouth?

Drawing me in, and you kicking me out

You’ve got my head spinning, no kidding, I can’t pin you down

What’s going on in that beautiful mind

I’m on your magical mystery ride

And I’m so dizzy, don’t know what hit me, but I’ll be alright

[Pre-Chorus:]

My head’s under water

But I’m breathing fine

You’re crazy and I’m out of my mind

[Chorus:]

'Cause all of me

Loves all of you

Love your curves and all your edges

All your perfect imperfections

Give your all to me

I’ll give my all to you

You’re my end and my beginning

Even when I lose I’m winning

'Cause I give you all of me

And you give me all of you, oh

[Verse 2:]

How many times do I have to tell you

Even when you’re crying you’re beautiful too

The world is beating you down, I’m around through every mood

You’re my downfall, you’re my muse

My worst distraction, my rhythm and blues

I can’t stop singing, it’s ringing, in my head for you

[Pre-Chorus:]

My head’s under water

But I’m breathing fine

You’re crazy and I’m out of my mind

[Chorus:]

'Cause all of me

Loves all of you

Love your curves and all your edges

All your perfect imperfections

Give your all to me

I’ll give my all to you

You’re my end and my beginning

Even when I lose I’m winning

'Cause I give you all of me

And you give me all of you, oh

[Bridge:]

Give me all of you

Cards on the table, we’re both showing hearts

Risking it all, though it’s hard

[Chorus:]

'Cause all of me

Loves all of you

Love your curves and all your edges

All your perfect imperfections

Give your all to me

I’ll give my all to you

You’re my end and my beginning

Even when I lose I’m winning

'Cause I give you all of me

And you give me all of you

I give you all of me

And you give me all of you, oh

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